Hello there.
Your blog is totally dead.
You must be wondering how I post this hehehehehe.
I'm booking in in like an hours time.
Goodbye for now :)

DESIREESAYS

"But then again, we all see things in a different light."

Hello blog, i've missed you.

Something went wrong with my template thus ending up with this crap.

I don't like it.

Nevertheless, it's a part of me.

So it's 2 days till i hit the big TWO-ONE apparently.

Tomorrow is more like the big day though.

Party hmm.

Maybe I bit off more than I can chew.

I've got so much to do and way too little time.

Cancellation is definitely not an option.

Can't help but consider it anyways.

I know myself.

And I'm no quitter.

I'll figure this shit out.

DESIREESAYS

"Just a phase of the century."

Hey.

This time last year.

Probably my favorite day of the first half of 2013.

It's ironic, I'm aware.

After all, today is April Fools Day.

I experienced so much in a single night:

1.

Excessive butterflies in my stomach.

Can't deny that  I'm just like any other female teenager.

Tell me something like that and I'm going to melt.

Why?

Because I wasn't expecting it and I never in a million years would have.

Yet it's what I secretly hoped for despite my expectations.

2.
Insecure.

I take such matters seriously.

Discussing it on April Fools, not the best idea.

Saying April Fools! Then saying kidding.

That's even worse.

3.

Confused.

New situation, however, I did not have a response plan.

I guess you could say I didn't know how to react to anything.

Then again, I rarely know how to react to anything.

So yeah.

That's it about the past.

Anyways, back to the current.

Good news.

I managed to clear all my modules.

Which means....

I AM GRADUATING!

No more educational worries for this girl!

Bad news.

Something is bothering me.

It's one of those feeling I can't seem to brush off.

So I have an overseas opportunity.

Do I want to take the opportunity?

Yes, I do!

Of course there's no guarantee I'd receive it though.

But I want to try!

I'm not afraid of being out there on my own.

I like a challenge.

So what's the problem?

How am I supposed to carry on when you've already got a knife at my throat?

Before I even applied, there's so many "what if's".

That's my problem.

Now I have truckloads of what if's of my own

What if I decide it's more important to stay?

Then I lose a good opportunity.

What if I decide to go?

Then there's going to be paranoia regarding my loyalty.

And I don't know if I can deal with that.

There's more but let's not go there.

So what am I supposed to do? 

DESIREESAYS

"Passion."

Hello.

It's probably the worst time for a post.

Exam in just 7 hours.

I need a nice long weekend.

Graduation is just 3 months away, hopefully.

I've got my fingers crossed.

The amount of stress and pressure it way too intense.

Not to mention a corrupt body clock isn't doing me any good either.

I feel so out of my zone.

Perhaps it's a crucial period now.

Have you ever felt so out of place that you start to question if there's something wrong with you?

Not me.

Maybe I should.

Then I can start feeling normal again.

Anyways, I had a pretty disappointing day.

Studying.

Unproductive as compared to my expectations.

Procrastination.

Way above my expectations.

I was really looking forward to something earlier on.

But nope.

Didn't happen.

On a brighter note, I managed to enjoy my night with Seri.

So this is goodnight.

Back to memorizing.

DESIREESAYS

"Because you can't make the best of every situation."

It's about time to say goodbye to January.

I'm a little too early but whatever.

I don't think I've ever worked so hard academically in a single month.

6 more weeks till i can strike off the title of student.

I can't say I'm not looking forward to it.

Yet, I can't say I'm not going to miss it.

So how have I been?

"PERFECT"

Let's start with the lack of sleep.

Insane eye bags worse than that of a panda.

My brain is probably overworked.

My body is definitely overworked.

Which is a bad thing.

It means no exercise time for me, even if I'm not lazy to do so.

Appetite-wise, not looking good either.

I am in need of a serious rest and relax day at the beach or something.

You know what's strange.

Singapore has been ridiculously chilly recently.

IT IS KILLING ME!

Yeah, it's perfect for when I got to bed.

However, it's too cold in the day.

I miss the sun :(

Please shine on me and keep me warm.

Especially when I don't have a jacket on hand^^

Till next time~