DESIREESAYS
'For there to be good, there has to be bad'

Last night, and the entire day, got me thinking.
Its not just a thought, it's a mountain of thoughts!
Like 'Am i really happy the way things are now?'
'What's the point of doing what i actually do?'
And 'Do i even know who i am?'
Super-massive Brain-ache.
But surprisingly, it felt pretty good.
Like today, I was a loner on the weekends as usual.
So i decided to head out and cycle.
I managed to clear out a few thoughts :)
I guess it's a 'Blessing in Disguise' that I had all that time for myself.

So forget that, and here's the bitchy part.
As we're all pretty much aware,
POLY = PROJECTS = GROUPWORK.
Well, I'm way beyond pissed off with my groupmates.
Like hello! Earth to groupmates!
Project due for checking tuesday.
And what have we done,
That's right, NOTHING!
NOT ONE BLOODY USEFUL THING.
Uurgh. Shoot me already:/

Turning more insane day after day.
Slowly tearing apart.
Before completely fading into oblivion.

DESIREESAYS
''Silence is the key.''

Some things are meant to last.
While other should have never started.

Weekends have taken itself to a whole new level.
What happened to all the parties?
And all the late night hangouts?
Well, it pretty much faded into oblivion.
It's been 3 weeks since i've gotten a single text message on a weekend.
:/
Sucks for me.
Maybe it's an opportunity for me to do something productive.
Or maybe it's a sign that I need to get myself a proper life.

Oh well.
I managed to complete my lab report today ^^
And I've still got truckloads of time to get more work done.
Oh!
And I've decided to cut my bad habit.
I'm getting hugeass support apparently.
So i guess it'll be easier than i thought.

So here's me.
Alone at home.
Camwhoring.
On a bloody SATURDAY!

DESIREESAYS
'Hope dangles on a string.'

Yes, i am completely aware that I've just updated my blog like a minute ago.
But those we're just photos.
After a pretty long time, I feel like crap today.
Not pissed.
Not down.
Not over-loaded.
Not hurt.
Not rejected.
But all of it.

WARNING: This is more of a RANT, than a post.

So when something comes up, who do you turn to?
Your friends.
Apparently, I have none.
Well, apart for those i actually turned to, the rest are still cool.
I'm sick of being there when you'll never be here.
And I'm sick of texting, but never getting a reply.
I'm sick of caring when you obviously don't.
Is it selfish for me to want to talk to somebody when i need to?
I'm guessing it's a yes.
Since everyone would rather study, stay home or just completely ignore me.
Well, I'm done!
I'm not going to reply any bloody texts anymore.
I'm not going to pick up any bloody calls anymore.
I'm not going to care if you're down.
I'm not even going to bother meeting anyone anymore.

Like seriously.
Do i have to mention that something's up for anyone to notice?
Its not like I don't tweet.
Oh well.
At least there's a handful that still bothers.
Still, i can't help but feel used.
I'm supposed to be completing my assignments.
But here i am, ranting :/
Oh, Fuck it.

DESIREESAYS
'I'm no butterfly, I'm a moth.'

So much has happened in a month.
I've decided to let the photos do the talking.

So there was Aunty Vanessa's Birthday Party:)

Not to mention, I've found awesome course-mates living in Woodlands too ^^

And there was Feast Day. Finally had our own stall.
Bubble Tea <3

A day out with STC trackers. My babies^^

And TP Sprinters Chalet too :D

Of course more than that happened in a month.
But it wasn't all captured :(

DESIREESAYS
''Hope, dangles on a string.''

Firstly, PERERAS. We love you.
And we love sunny too :)
I know its painful to see him go.
But I know he's in a better place with God.
And he'll always have a place in my heart too <3

After almost what feels like a million years.
I finally met up with Kristel and Gian.
And Jp too.
The plan was just to chill, for old times sake.
Instead, we kicked back at old school hangout.
And you know the rest^^

Michelle's 'happy' moment.

Hi! Meet Jp, but careful, he bites.

Some willow smith moments there.

BRACE YOURSELVES.

FOR WHAT WE CALL 'PHOTO OF THE DAY'



'THE DEEP THROAT FACE!'

;)