DESIREESAYS

"I've drawn regret from the truth of a thousand lies."

Good evening.

Sunday, 5th May 2013, 10:50pm.

As usual, brace yourself for yet another one of my dull tales.

Let's see.

I am definitely relieved that I've managed to get rid of all that stress.

Well, most of it at least.

Freshmen Orientation is long over yet part of me feels like it isn't.

Probably due to the fact I feel responsible for its disastrous events.

Yes feel. Not FELT.

For a start, I killed cheer team's winning streak.

Possibly killed the chances for best spirited as well.

I barely put an effort in that aspect.

Everything seemed like a hot mess from my point of view.

Running up, down, back and forth like a dog.

Kinda got me thinking, "Where the hell was my team?"

Yeah that right, right in front of my face.

I guess it was my mistake or maybe it was the best decision I made.

Unreliable, unmotivated, disorganized, indolent.

That's not a team i'd give a second look at, but that's more or less what I had.

Of course they had their positive traits.

But hey! I'm a pessimist after all.

In summary.

The most chaotic thing I've done.

Pushed me to the verge of breaking down every other night.

Not satisfied.

Got over it.

Apart from that nightmare, CPTC is another one.

Chemical Process Training Centre.

That's my life for the next 4 and past 2 weeks.

8am - 4pm everyday.

Either in a 3 hour lecture, tutorial or out in the plant.

I like the smoking corner though.

It's windy.

Kok Feng is ditching us in about 5 weeks.

Off to Australia he goes for 2 years to study.

I'm happy for you bro but that sucks! :')

The whole situation really got me missing my friends.

I'm feeling beyond nostalgic.

One more thing.

There's been a drastic change in my life.

No, it's not my sarcasm.

No, it's not boobs.

And no, definitely not my love for ice-cream.

Have fun guessing if it's worth your while.

Let the photos and little captions work their magic.

Goodnight.

I'll be back, maybe in a month.

 "CPTC"

"The friends i seem to be missing so much"

DESIREESAYS

"Inhale, exhale."

2am on a Sunday morning.

So earlier on, we celebrated Zephen's 15th birthday.

That boy is so big and tall now but he's still and forever will be my favorite little brother :')

Met Maria, Michelle and JM for a beer at Bojangles after.

Caught the West Ham match and part of the Man U match too.

Been practically living in school for the past two week.

Got to admit, I've missed my family and friends truckloads!

I'm glad to be back home :)

So close to my family, friends and my secret hideouts!

Anyways, for the past two week, I've been living in the apartments in school.

Loved every moment of it!

Even the fact that I was sleep deprived, cause if i wasn't, then I would have missed out on alot of fun.

Eunice was a lovely roommate to have.

We cleaned together, studied together, sneaked out together and had alot of time to just talk.

It's one thing to have someone to hear you out.

But it's an entirely different thing to have someone who can relate to you.

Well I did spend a significant amount of time with Roy, Rayyan, Noel and Luke too.

Such entertaining boys ;)

Moving on, there's something I feel I need to do.

I'm not afraid to do it.

I'm just afraid of the outcome of it all,

Oh well.

Patience is a virtue.

With that, Goodnight~

Btw, here's some photos from TNS!

DESIREESAYS

"When all hope is lost"

17th January 2013.

Today was the worst day of my life.

I mean it.

I've never felt so disappointed in myself to such a extend.

If I'm not good enough, then why'd you give me such a responsibility?

And instead of supporting or advising, you choose to guilt trip and crush me.

Like i'm a fucking piece of rough paper you fucking crush and throw anywhere cause nobody gives a shit about it.

What can I say.

I'm done being a supportive friend and I'm done even considering shit you say to me.

Don't make me feel like shit and cry, then hug me as though i'm supposed to say it's okay.

CAUSE IT'S NOT!

Well that's just part one.

Here comes part two~

Now I've got a serious issue with this bugger.

You don't go around telling people what you hear in discreet.

Especially when they're supposed to be your friends.

Gosh, I feel really stupid right now.

Yeah, I've been warned that you do shit like this to others.

But I honestly thought you deserved a chance not to be judged.

But fuck that shit right?

No wonder you can't keep hold of your "friends."

Fuck, typing this out is pissing me off already.

It's good enough I talked to you nicely rather than screaming at you.

I could have made you felt like fuck, but did I?

NO.

But you still don't get it.

FUCK THAT SHIT!

I give up. I honestly give up.

I don't want to look at you.

I don't want to talk to you.

I don't want to work with you.

I don't want to be associated with you.

But if I have to, I'll keep it professional. 

Dealing with such people made me realize something.

I'm fucking thankful for the real friends I have.

The ones who do give a fuck.

So thank you guys so much :')

Anyways, here's some photo's from my christmas party!

And even more photos from Jun Hui's birthday party :)

DESIREESAYS

"Because keeping quiet can kill." 

 Gosh does time fly.

It's already 2013.

I wouldn't say it was the start I hoped for, but i'm not complaining.

Who knows, it could have been worse.

So I've decided to have only 1 new year's resolution this time.

"LEAVING THE PAST BEHIND"

Yeah, it sounds pretty simple.

But I think I struggled with that last year.

A new year, a fresh start right? :)

I guess I can say I'm satisfied so far.

The only thing I'm unhappy with would be my grades.

I have no idea how but I felt like I really worked hard this time round.

Yet I still did terrible :(

I'm 50/50 right now.

I'm on the verge of giving up but I don't want the past two years to be flushed down the drain!

Someone save me.

I'm drowning in my own misery.

On the brighter side....

Right, there's isn't a brighter side.

Least not just yet.

Well I did have alot of fun last year.

From my last post till today, plenty has been happening.

There was Michelle's and Althea's birthdays, Halloween, Chirstmas Parties, A-Guides Camp, ASc Got Talent, POLITE, term tests and so much more.

Here are some photos.

Enjoy :)