DESIREESAYS

"Passion."

Hello.

It's probably the worst time for a post.

Exam in just 7 hours.

I need a nice long weekend.

Graduation is just 3 months away, hopefully.

I've got my fingers crossed.

The amount of stress and pressure it way too intense.

Not to mention a corrupt body clock isn't doing me any good either.

I feel so out of my zone.

Perhaps it's a crucial period now.

Have you ever felt so out of place that you start to question if there's something wrong with you?

Not me.

Maybe I should.

Then I can start feeling normal again.

Anyways, I had a pretty disappointing day.

Studying.

Unproductive as compared to my expectations.

Procrastination.

Way above my expectations.

I was really looking forward to something earlier on.

But nope.

Didn't happen.

On a brighter note, I managed to enjoy my night with Seri.

So this is goodnight.

Back to memorizing.

DESIREESAYS

"Because you can't make the best of every situation."

It's about time to say goodbye to January.

I'm a little too early but whatever.

I don't think I've ever worked so hard academically in a single month.

6 more weeks till i can strike off the title of student.

I can't say I'm not looking forward to it.

Yet, I can't say I'm not going to miss it.

So how have I been?

"PERFECT"

Let's start with the lack of sleep.

Insane eye bags worse than that of a panda.

My brain is probably overworked.

My body is definitely overworked.

Which is a bad thing.

It means no exercise time for me, even if I'm not lazy to do so.

Appetite-wise, not looking good either.

I am in need of a serious rest and relax day at the beach or something.

You know what's strange.

Singapore has been ridiculously chilly recently.

IT IS KILLING ME!

Yeah, it's perfect for when I got to bed.

However, it's too cold in the day.

I miss the sun :(

Please shine on me and keep me warm.

Especially when I don't have a jacket on hand^^

Till next time~

DESIREESAYS

"Too much reality, too little imagination."

Hello.

Term test is just around the corner.

This semester feels like a good one.

Perhaps the best I may ever do.

Then again, it's just a feeling.

Not too sure if I'm willing to put in the extra effort to make it so.

It's amazing how much has changed after spending a semester away from school.

During internship, I craved lectures and lab sessions.

Sitting at a desk all day made school feel like heaven.

I actually enjoy having time to sit down alone and study now.

Yes, this face and the word study may sound impossible.

But looks like a miracle is happening~

Anyways, it's the 1st of December.

2nd actually.

Since I have this tendency to blog after midnight and then I get confused which day it is.

Nevermind that.

The point is, December is finally here!

Christmas is nearing!

New Year's Eve is nearing.

I'm excited for all the warm, fuzzy Christmas love!

Last year was a completely different feel.

But this year is going to be great!

I know it.

If it isn't great.

I'll be sure to at least make a couple of memories.

There's so many things I haven't thought of yet.

Like what am I going to wear?

What presents should I get?

Do I throw a party?

What's my resolution?

OH MY GOSH.

So much to do, so little time.

So my previous post was rather negative.

Sarcastic.

Cold.

Egoistic.

And the list goes on.

It's over though for now.

Hopefully for a long time.

I'd say forever but realistically speaking, nothing is forever.

Except cockroaches.

Those little dudes are indestructible.

Gross.

Yeah.

So things are so much better now.

I don't get as much time as before.

It can't be helped because apparently exams are like a tequila shot.

It's serious shit.

You've got to train hard, in this case, study hard.

Then you'd be able to take the shot easily.

Like me ;)

I really do need to stop getting distracted and typing nonsense.

What would I like for Christmas this year?

1.) A hat for my collection.

2.) To go somewhere that's beautiful and relaxing.

3.) Something that will leave me speechless

4.) To party all 12 days.

5.) To wear a pretty outfit for all 12 days :)

OULALALALALALALALALA.

Can't wait! :)

Hehe~

I do have a problem though.

Somebody in particular won't tell me what he wants for Christmas.

So I'm going to be a stressed little girl till I figure it out.

WISH ME LUCK.

Irish luck.

DESIREESAYS

""Raise you filthy palms up, like tiny daggers up to heaven.

The trend has become rather obvious.

A new post symbolizes my urge to express a truck worth of feelings bottled up.

"Lies and deception are a part of life. You learn from them, move on and grow stronger."

So where do I begin?

Since I'm supposed to reflect, here it is!

"WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

That's an interesting question.

I have not the slightest idea what is wrong with me.

Being who I am, I would have fixed it or be working on it if i was aware.

"WHY GOT MESSAGE OTHER GUYS IS IT?"

That's an obvious question.

Of course I do!

I have male friends.

As a matter of fact, majority of my poly friends are male.

I do believe there's only 2 females I'm constantly around.

One is really busy and the other is really bad at replying messages.

So if i need something, I message other guys and that's it.

""CAN YOU STOP CLUBBING?"

If you haven't realized, I have.

Doesn't mean it's wrong to want to once in a while.

If you need to be with me in order for me to club, then you should come.

If you say no because you're unavailable, I understand.

But if it's no because it's not your crowd, then I don't understand.

I am trying to reach out. I always try to reach out.

But sarcasm and silent treatment gets you nowhere.

If it makes you feel any better,

The silent treatment kills me inside.

 And I'm dead serious about it.

The longer you keep it up, the worse I'm going to get.

If that's what you're aiming for, then by all means, go ahead.

I am done trying to make things better because it feels like I'm talking to a wall.

You're sad/hurt/disappointed, I get it.

But you're not the only one.

 

 

DESIREESAYS

"And now I'm calling, calling out your name."

Been sick the past week.

Had a hell of a shocker early this morning.

Nevertheless, everything is great!

Ever just closed your eyes, took a deep breath and felt just perfect?

No pictures in your head.

No thoughts.

No songs.

Nothing.

Yeah. That's exactly what I need to do.

My birthday is in a couple of days.

As usual, I dread the day.

I've never liked the idea of celebrating my birthday.

I'd rather just spend it alone.

Reflect on the past year and embrace the good memories.

I don't like receiving gifts either.

I don't like cake.

I think the sweetest thing is a card.

One that takes some time and effort with a meaningful end to it :)

Well, I don't know why.

But I feel like this song is exactly how I feel.