DESIREESAYS

""Raise you filthy palms up, like tiny daggers up to heaven.

The trend has become rather obvious.

A new post symbolizes my urge to express a truck worth of feelings bottled up.

"Lies and deception are a part of life. You learn from them, move on and grow stronger."

So where do I begin?

Since I'm supposed to reflect, here it is!

"WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

That's an interesting question.

I have not the slightest idea what is wrong with me.

Being who I am, I would have fixed it or be working on it if i was aware.

"WHY GOT MESSAGE OTHER GUYS IS IT?"

That's an obvious question.

Of course I do!

I have male friends.

As a matter of fact, majority of my poly friends are male.

I do believe there's only 2 females I'm constantly around.

One is really busy and the other is really bad at replying messages.

So if i need something, I message other guys and that's it.

""CAN YOU STOP CLUBBING?"

If you haven't realized, I have.

Doesn't mean it's wrong to want to once in a while.

If you need to be with me in order for me to club, then you should come.

If you say no because you're unavailable, I understand.

But if it's no because it's not your crowd, then I don't understand.

I am trying to reach out. I always try to reach out.

But sarcasm and silent treatment gets you nowhere.

If it makes you feel any better,

The silent treatment kills me inside.

 And I'm dead serious about it.

The longer you keep it up, the worse I'm going to get.

If that's what you're aiming for, then by all means, go ahead.

I am done trying to make things better because it feels like I'm talking to a wall.

You're sad/hurt/disappointed, I get it.

But you're not the only one.