DESIREESAYS
''Such Intensity.''

Good Morning!
It's 12.12am, I'm insanely exhausted.
But thoughts have to be expressed one way or another right?

There's so much angst around me right now.
That's way too much negative energy for this girl at the moment.
Like how today is bloody Friday for me.
Or rather bloody Saturday if 17minutes really makes a difference.
The point is, that means last week, was PMS week!
Figures.
I fought with this girl in my class.
I'm such a hater now.
And that would also explain the retarded thoughts running through my head!

Nevertheless, this is supposed to be a happy post!
So I watch Captain America earlier today.
The movie was pretty good, and so was the company.
Coach didn't give us a special endurance workout either.
Guess I can finally say TGIF!

Can't wait to sleep.
I can feel my eyebags expanding!
Goodnight lovelies.

DESIREESAYS
'Scream your heart out!'

This is a rather short and sad post.
Easy enough.
I MISS RUSTEE.
Saw people dancing in school today, and it reminded me of us.
And the crazy thing we used to do together.
Miss you girls :'(

DESIREESAYS
'For there to be good, there has to be bad'

Last night, and the entire day, got me thinking.
Its not just a thought, it's a mountain of thoughts!
Like 'Am i really happy the way things are now?'
'What's the point of doing what i actually do?'
And 'Do i even know who i am?'
Super-massive Brain-ache.
But surprisingly, it felt pretty good.
Like today, I was a loner on the weekends as usual.
So i decided to head out and cycle.
I managed to clear out a few thoughts :)
I guess it's a 'Blessing in Disguise' that I had all that time for myself.

So forget that, and here's the bitchy part.
As we're all pretty much aware,
POLY = PROJECTS = GROUPWORK.
Well, I'm way beyond pissed off with my groupmates.
Like hello! Earth to groupmates!
Project due for checking tuesday.
And what have we done,
That's right, NOTHING!
NOT ONE BLOODY USEFUL THING.
Uurgh. Shoot me already:/

Turning more insane day after day.
Slowly tearing apart.
Before completely fading into oblivion.

DESIREESAYS
''Silence is the key.''

Some things are meant to last.
While other should have never started.

Weekends have taken itself to a whole new level.
What happened to all the parties?
And all the late night hangouts?
Well, it pretty much faded into oblivion.
It's been 3 weeks since i've gotten a single text message on a weekend.
:/
Sucks for me.
Maybe it's an opportunity for me to do something productive.
Or maybe it's a sign that I need to get myself a proper life.

Oh well.
I managed to complete my lab report today ^^
And I've still got truckloads of time to get more work done.
Oh!
And I've decided to cut my bad habit.
I'm getting hugeass support apparently.
So i guess it'll be easier than i thought.

So here's me.
Alone at home.
Camwhoring.
On a bloody SATURDAY!

DESIREESAYS
'Hope dangles on a string.'

Yes, i am completely aware that I've just updated my blog like a minute ago.
But those we're just photos.
After a pretty long time, I feel like crap today.
Not pissed.
Not down.
Not over-loaded.
Not hurt.
Not rejected.
But all of it.

WARNING: This is more of a RANT, than a post.

So when something comes up, who do you turn to?
Your friends.
Apparently, I have none.
Well, apart for those i actually turned to, the rest are still cool.
I'm sick of being there when you'll never be here.
And I'm sick of texting, but never getting a reply.
I'm sick of caring when you obviously don't.
Is it selfish for me to want to talk to somebody when i need to?
I'm guessing it's a yes.
Since everyone would rather study, stay home or just completely ignore me.
Well, I'm done!
I'm not going to reply any bloody texts anymore.
I'm not going to pick up any bloody calls anymore.
I'm not going to care if you're down.
I'm not even going to bother meeting anyone anymore.

Like seriously.
Do i have to mention that something's up for anyone to notice?
Its not like I don't tweet.
Oh well.
At least there's a handful that still bothers.
Still, i can't help but feel used.
I'm supposed to be completing my assignments.
But here i am, ranting :/
Oh, Fuck it.

DESIREESAYS
'I'm no butterfly, I'm a moth.'

So much has happened in a month.
I've decided to let the photos do the talking.

So there was Aunty Vanessa's Birthday Party:)

Not to mention, I've found awesome course-mates living in Woodlands too ^^

And there was Feast Day. Finally had our own stall.
Bubble Tea <3

A day out with STC trackers. My babies^^

And TP Sprinters Chalet too :D

Of course more than that happened in a month.
But it wasn't all captured :(