DESIREESAYS
'Meowwyyy'

Go TP Sprintz!
We kicked some ass during Pol-Ite alright.
Well, they kicked ass at least.
I mainly cheered them on to kick some ass.

So anyways, I'm having a photo dedication to you guys~
Not like anyone reads my blog.
But hey!
It's the thought that counts right?

I've got something I really want to voice out.
But I'm really not looking forward to the response.
So I think I'll keep my lips sealed.
At least for the time-being.
Check out how things are going~
Then do it when I'm absolutely fearless.
Goodnight~

DESIREESAYS

'Sometimes, you want one. But you need two.'

So am I supposed to go 'HALLELUJAH!" ?
I think it's been nearly a month since I've been here.
Quite some stuff have happened since then :/
And since it's 1.40am, and it's the bloody holidays.
I'm going to post everything!
Don't worry, you'll get a present after reading all this crap ;)

Let's BEGIN!

Number one.
So apparently I did not do so well in terms of education-_-
But I intend to kick some ass next semester.
Of course I'm going to need some study buddies.
Where the heck do you get those?!
It's like impossible to find someone who'd go 'DESIREE, SHUT UP AND STUDY!'
Volunteers anyone?
On my knees pleading in desperation here!

Number two.
Apparently I'm not doing well training-wise as well-_- -_-
Oh gosh, oh golly!
I swear I suck more than I did before.
Probably cause I've got no motivation on kicking ass.
Especially since I consistently get my ass kicked.
Haha, bummer:/
I mean, eventually you'd get used to just getting owned right?
Friendly on Saturday.
Not to mention POLITE is in this month.
HOLYYYY SHITTT!

Number three.
My social-life is a wreck.
In other words, I have no idea WTF happened to all my friends.
There's the ones who don't reply my bloody texts, tweets or answer my calls.
Yeah, then entertain the rest of the world.
Thanks, you're a real friend!
Then there's the ones who totally forget I exist.
You know, if I'm not invited, you can always tell me.
Instead of being a bitch and lying to me about it.
Okay, can.
Then there's the ones who only come to me when they need something.
Oh come on already!
Seriously?!
Okay, getting angsty.
I'm just going to move on.

Number four.
Crush story, if that's even considered a crush.
Getting nowhere, going nowhere.
So I'm done.
I think I'm fated to remain single all my life.
Or to be lesbian.
We'll just have to wait and see.

Number five.
I'm freaking 18!
It doesn't make much of a difference though.
Except the amount of freedom my parents surprisingly gave me.
And they're alot more open with my parties and alcohol issues.
Not bad, not bad at all.

Number six.
I totally forgot but this should have been the second one.
SCHOOLMATES. Intense.
So we had a chalet earlier on which went alright.
It pretty much gave me a better idea who I'm cool with.
And who's going to get their face slapped.
No names mentioned.
You should know who you are.

Number seven.
Okay. I'm brain-dead.
It's 2.10am already and i've been blogging for half an hour.
Nice (Y)
So number seven is the present I promised I'll give.
Hahahaha.
It's my camwhore photo.
Yupp. NOT ALL. JUST TWO.
SUCKER.
Enjoy!
Laugh at it, zoom at my flaws, do something!
I don't really give to shits.

I'm out.


How typical.

This is my mugggg-shot btw.

DESIREESAYS
'When you lose something, you'd value it more'

Yes, I'm aware it's the middle of exams right now.
And that I have a paper to sit for tomorrow.
And that it's 1am yet I'm blogging.
So I'll just summarize it all!

Finally had a night out with the girls on Friday.
Prisci's belated birthday dinner^^
I miss them so bloody much.
I could hug them till they suffocate and die!
Well, the sleepover is on 5 days!
OMG! So excited!
Better plan my pajamas fast!

Anyways, here's some photos from Friday.

Birthday Girl and Jessie (thanks for taking all the pictures!)

DESIREESAYS
'Too hot for me. Got to let go.'

So I've decided to blog before I start my exams.
Which is like, next week! :O
I've got truckloads of revision to complete.
And I've only just began.
GREAT!
Not to mention how sleep deprived I am!
It's not very pleasant to sleep at 3am everyday and wake up by 7am.
I get only 4hours of sleep on a daily basis.
AN AVERAGE TEENAGER NEEDS AT LEAST 8HOURS.
I'm like superman or something!

Moving on.
My 18th birthday is in a month.
Still contemplating if I should throw a party.
My parents aren't gonna organize anything, cause they never do.
My friends aren't either cause they're all obviously too busy.
So it's up to me I guess.
Or I could always spend my birthday alone :/
I really wouldn't mind.
So party or no party?
Hate making decisions.

DESIREESAYS
'It takes two.'
Time check : 1st August, 12.32am.
The year is passing faster than it should.
I guess it's a pretty good thing.
Especially since 2011 has been nothing but unfair to me.
Then again, time is precious.
Which makes it a bad thing.

Since it's the 8th month, I made a list of 8 things I like and dislike about myself.
4 of each because i'm oh so lazy to put much thought into it.
Yes I'm completely aware how primary school this is.
But I'm embracing my long forgotten childhood.
:)

So let's start with the positive.
1. I like my body now. Its not fat anymore and definitely more tone.
2. I live that i've become much more responsible.
3. I like that I don't depend on company anymore (Getting the hang of the loner thing.)
4. I like that my hair is growing and my curls will be back in no time!

Now for the negative.
1. I'm not a fan of my skin-tone. Way way too dark :/
2. I hate that my body refuses to wake up any earlier than 7!
3. I hate that I've turn into a total crybaby nowadays.
4. I hate that I've not been able to stay away from bad habits.

So since that's done, I guess I'm done for tonight.
Goodnight, and goodbye July.
You were such a bitch.

DESIREESAYS
''Such Intensity.''

Good Morning!
It's 12.12am, I'm insanely exhausted.
But thoughts have to be expressed one way or another right?

There's so much angst around me right now.
That's way too much negative energy for this girl at the moment.
Like how today is bloody Friday for me.
Or rather bloody Saturday if 17minutes really makes a difference.
The point is, that means last week, was PMS week!
Figures.
I fought with this girl in my class.
I'm such a hater now.
And that would also explain the retarded thoughts running through my head!

Nevertheless, this is supposed to be a happy post!
So I watch Captain America earlier today.
The movie was pretty good, and so was the company.
Coach didn't give us a special endurance workout either.
Guess I can finally say TGIF!

Can't wait to sleep.
I can feel my eyebags expanding!
Goodnight lovelies.

DESIREESAYS
'Scream your heart out!'

This is a rather short and sad post.
Easy enough.
I MISS RUSTEE.
Saw people dancing in school today, and it reminded me of us.
And the crazy thing we used to do together.
Miss you girls :'(

DESIREESAYS
'For there to be good, there has to be bad'

Last night, and the entire day, got me thinking.
Its not just a thought, it's a mountain of thoughts!
Like 'Am i really happy the way things are now?'
'What's the point of doing what i actually do?'
And 'Do i even know who i am?'
Super-massive Brain-ache.
But surprisingly, it felt pretty good.
Like today, I was a loner on the weekends as usual.
So i decided to head out and cycle.
I managed to clear out a few thoughts :)
I guess it's a 'Blessing in Disguise' that I had all that time for myself.

So forget that, and here's the bitchy part.
As we're all pretty much aware,
POLY = PROJECTS = GROUPWORK.
Well, I'm way beyond pissed off with my groupmates.
Like hello! Earth to groupmates!
Project due for checking tuesday.
And what have we done,
That's right, NOTHING!
NOT ONE BLOODY USEFUL THING.
Uurgh. Shoot me already:/

Turning more insane day after day.
Slowly tearing apart.
Before completely fading into oblivion.

DESIREESAYS
''Silence is the key.''

Some things are meant to last.
While other should have never started.

Weekends have taken itself to a whole new level.
What happened to all the parties?
And all the late night hangouts?
Well, it pretty much faded into oblivion.
It's been 3 weeks since i've gotten a single text message on a weekend.
:/
Sucks for me.
Maybe it's an opportunity for me to do something productive.
Or maybe it's a sign that I need to get myself a proper life.

Oh well.
I managed to complete my lab report today ^^
And I've still got truckloads of time to get more work done.
Oh!
And I've decided to cut my bad habit.
I'm getting hugeass support apparently.
So i guess it'll be easier than i thought.

So here's me.
Alone at home.
Camwhoring.
On a bloody SATURDAY!

DESIREESAYS
'Hope dangles on a string.'

Yes, i am completely aware that I've just updated my blog like a minute ago.
But those we're just photos.
After a pretty long time, I feel like crap today.
Not pissed.
Not down.
Not over-loaded.
Not hurt.
Not rejected.
But all of it.

WARNING: This is more of a RANT, than a post.

So when something comes up, who do you turn to?
Your friends.
Apparently, I have none.
Well, apart for those i actually turned to, the rest are still cool.
I'm sick of being there when you'll never be here.
And I'm sick of texting, but never getting a reply.
I'm sick of caring when you obviously don't.
Is it selfish for me to want to talk to somebody when i need to?
I'm guessing it's a yes.
Since everyone would rather study, stay home or just completely ignore me.
Well, I'm done!
I'm not going to reply any bloody texts anymore.
I'm not going to pick up any bloody calls anymore.
I'm not going to care if you're down.
I'm not even going to bother meeting anyone anymore.

Like seriously.
Do i have to mention that something's up for anyone to notice?
Its not like I don't tweet.
Oh well.
At least there's a handful that still bothers.
Still, i can't help but feel used.
I'm supposed to be completing my assignments.
But here i am, ranting :/
Oh, Fuck it.

DESIREESAYS
'I'm no butterfly, I'm a moth.'

So much has happened in a month.
I've decided to let the photos do the talking.

So there was Aunty Vanessa's Birthday Party:)

Not to mention, I've found awesome course-mates living in Woodlands too ^^

And there was Feast Day. Finally had our own stall.
Bubble Tea <3

A day out with STC trackers. My babies^^

And TP Sprinters Chalet too :D

Of course more than that happened in a month.
But it wasn't all captured :(