DESIREESAYS

"The reason for second guessing"

I've been stuck in camp since Tuesday.
What I need : SLEEP, FOOD, A BED, FAMILY, CLOSE FRIENDS.
What I want : TO GO HOME.
It's not that I'm not enjoying myself here.
But it does suck to be a secretary and have absolutely nothing to do.
I swear I find myself walking around aimlessly most of the time.
Oh well~
I guess that's how it just is.
Anyways, I am sleep deprived as HELL.
2-4 hours of sleep each night is definitely not enough.
Thank God tomorrow is the last day.

I had one of the best 3 days last week.
The chalet with the usuals finally happened.
Guess how long we've been planning it?
ABOUT 5 BLOODY YEARS!
No wonder it went so well.
Photos are here in no order whatsoever.
It's 4.43am and I have to report at 8.00am.
Guess I should go to sleep soon.

Don't confuse me any more than I already am.
I don't need that.
Especially not from YOU.

DESIREESAYS
"Don't you ever feel like you're less than fucking perfect?"

Can't help but feel at my lowest.
The year felt like it was going to be way smoother than the last.
But as usual, things fall out of place and get worse as time passes.
Hopefully this is as bad as it gets.
Or else guys, you might just have to stop me from doing something really stupid.
And by stupid, I mean BLOODY STUPID.

Not everything is bad though.
I mean after years of misunderstandings and conflicts, we're all finally together again.
And nothing beats that.
We're even having our long-delayed clique chalet.
And boy, do I have a surprise for you guys ;)
Also, my class is way closer now.
At least the majority of us are.
Who would have imagined an 'amazing race' at sentosa.

IN THE RAIN.
FREEZING MY ASS OFF.
HUNTING FOR WEIRD ITEMS.
DOING TASKS TO GET CLUES.
Would have been just what we needed.
I'll share some photos as soon as they get uploaded.

In the mean time, here are some photos from the past two months.

ZIRCA <3

MARIA'S AWESOME 21st BIRTHDAY.
Free flow of booze plus amazing company
Plus a super smexy birthday girl ;)

ASHLEY'S 19th BIRTHDAY
Surprise at Fish and Co~

IVP 2012.
TP for the win^^
I stole these photos from Bing by the way.

Farewell, I'll miss you
I'm sick of these goodbyes'
Cause it tore us apart right from the start
I miss you

DESIREESAYS
'Some things are better left unknown'

It hit me today when I got a whatsapp message from a friend.
She asked me how I was.
I replied with a 'barely surviving.'
It's only the beginning of March.
Yet I experienced more downs than ups.
More lows than highs.
And definitely more pain than any other emotion.

So it got me thinking.
WHY THE HELL DID I BOTHER IN THE FIRST PLACE?!
Seriously?
Got to learn to shut off my emotions again.
So I made a promise to myself.
As of today.
I WILL DO IT!