DESIREESAYS
'When all hope is lost'
Is it too really much to ask for?
For everyone to simply forgive and forget.
And then move on,pretending like absolutely nothing happened.
For what I've been through, it definitely is.
I'd reconsider if it was just one or two misunderstandings.
But countless misunderstandings, suggests something's not right.
Or something is just not meant to be the way you want it to be.
I mean, shit happens to everyone right?
You don't just dwell on it till someone save you from your own sorrows.
You either save yourself, or just keep on running or hiding.
Nobody wants to carry another person's burden unwillingly.
Cause I know I don't.
I'm just saying, I'm done with dealing with shit like this.

Well, the first week of 2012 is over.
Things have been, well, pretty much unbalanced lately.
School isn't getting any easier.
There's truckloads of assignment piling up and I've got to admit, it's a struggle.
I can barely get enough sleep every night.
Yet, I've still got to sacrifice time to study and do assignments.
I guess it's time I kiss my social life goodbye.
Or at least tone it down till it's back to the holidays.

Friends.
What's there to say?
Nothing much except I really miss my IJ friends.
Life is a hell lot duller without you guys :(
No joke.

So anyways, the whole 'no new year resolution' thing got me thinking.
Perhaps I decided not to have one, because nothing seems satisfactory?
Like seriously.
What am I going to gain from telling myself 'Study harder'?
Yeah, better grades probably but I'm going to hate myself if I still screw up.
'No more alcohol'
Yeah, it's healthier for my body but i'll resort to something worse when I feel like crap.
And for everything else, it's the same.
There's a pro, and a con.
So basically, what I realized is,
I'm a bloody pessimist.

Insecurities kill.
At least lies only scar.
That's the only reason why I consider lying.